if there’s anything i’ve learnt in life its to always put yourself first. i used to overly care about social media and popularity online that i detatched myself from reality. i used to displace negative feelings towards myself to having a destructive relationship around food, from being 284lbs to 102lbs in just 9 months and having endless treatment to try and overcome these issues. i let people manipulate me into making me feel bad about a lot of my actions and feelings. i’ve spent far too long having a negative perspective of life. but now i’ve finally realised whats right, i do 40+ hours a week at work as well as college and revising for at least 6 hours a day. its hard but its easily tangible. i dont have time for temporary people resulting in my lack of communication with not only online friends but also many irl friends, my priorities are myself and my family. i’m happier than i’ve ever been because i have a stable relationship with food and a positive outlook about myself and my future. i cant wait to go to university to study history and see myself progress even more, i’ve come so far and i can’t wait for the future. being negative and displacing root causes onto manifesto’s will just leave you in a circular routine and you won’t progress, you can’t self actualise if you focus on the wrongs in your life and dont try to change them. i’ve come so far so if you want advice then here: you’re in control and you have to look after yourself. you do you better than anyone else can.
